Shitbowl

They dropped me in the shit
and let me swim around,
a goldfish in your toilet bowl,
don’t flush me, don’t forget me,
don’t forsake me for fuck’s sake,
it would hurt my hand to write but it hurts my mind
to write this,
I’ve forgotten how to write, to type, to spell,
boil, boll, bowl,
I’ve forgotten how to be forsaken,
went straight to humble in a handbasket
held by someone, you, giving me the middle finger,
I don’t want to think of my memories, I don’t want new ones,
I just want this moment, here, now,
swimming and slimming in the shit